I HAD A DREAM

I had a dream the other day, that I had a boyfriend,
I wonder who it could be... I didn't recognize him
but he was rather tall and blonde :) The one thing about
this dream is that we'd been dating for some time and
still hadn't kissed...

A more recent dream, as of last night, I found myself
dreaming of this wonderful man again, tall and blonde.
He asked me to homecoming, somewhere, someplace.
He was everything I could dream of. And I found myself
thanking God for him, because I had given up and let all things
go and he brought this wonderful man into my life...
Oh how I wish this dream would come true, because God,
I give all things to you. :)

xoxo

let it be

well hey, everything i wanted to happen, happened. well kind of. the guy i like found out that i like him...
and i get to see him for numerous hours tomorrow. OH JOY! soo that should be interesting. i just want to know what he thinks about the whole thing. i mean i'm sure he knew before today, because hey he held my hand that one night in summer. soo if he's soo not into the whole me liking him thing then why did he hold my hand anyways? my point exactly. case closed. i'm just gunna let it be. :)
peace.

what if

The big question of what if; always wondering what would have happened especially if you had done something ...

I find myself pondering the mysteries of life. What if i had done this, or done that and because i didn't take a risk, i do not know what would have happened. This happens especially with boys, I mean really, you like a guy and he likes you. JUST TELL EACH OTHER ALREADY. Take a risk! What are you waiting for? But everyone is afraid of rejection and a broken heart, it's quite understandable. But if you just wait, you might miss out on something big. 

If i could be truthfully honest and completely vulnerable to the guy i like, i would, but i'm afraid. Afraid of getting my heart broken, and I guess I should be. I'm the kind of person that chokes up and doesn't know what to say when he walks by. I mean this really just sounds pathetic. Just another day in my world. That is all.

someone is out there for you.

so theres this perfect someone waiting for you, but you just gotta wait too. maybe you know him, maybe you dont. but he'll come along sooner or later, or just get the courage to ask ya out.

somewhere, someplace, the stars will shine

And every night the stars will somewhere shine and you will close your eyes to fall asleep. 

There you will come into a dream that you wish was your reality. 

A place where all is perfect, but then this perfect world seems to slip through your fingers 

and you awaken to find that it was only a dream, a dream that was not real.

summer love.

How can you cross my mind

what we had is over and done with

time has gone by, we've moved on.

Life has changed but the guys that 

come in and out of my life, seem to scar my heart.

I'm careful of who i love, but if i fall too hard, i push away.

Just slamming that door shut and running away.

But there is this one guy, he's sweet and kind, 

I want to be more than a friend, 

I want to hold his hand. I want to look in his eyes.

It's hard to say goodbye, but so easy to say hello.

I don't just want a summer fling, i want something

serious and real. Something we can hold on to this year. 

life lately

Though many things have happened lately I feel that there is nothing much to write but i shall continue anyways.
Thought of the day: listening to your heart may be deceiving, so think it through... long and hard.

I go through my day, praying to God to help me make it through, to help me do well at my work.
He answered my prayer, though I did not ask for this to go wrong, it did.
That man i gave my heart to, he took it and twisted it around, now twisted and confused my heart aches.
I run to the Lord, asking for His forgiveness for giving my heart away too young and too fragile.
Through my pain and heartache I pray for the man i once loved with all my heart.
Thinking about what went wrong and how we could have stopped this, I don't think he realized when we were going off the train tracks of life.  Treat life like a train, WARNING: When driving do not be distracted by the many lovely and tempting things of life, you may go off the tracks. Keep your eye on God and God alone.  Father, Son, Holy Spirit is all you need to run this train... Mother Mary and Saint Joseph and the many saints may help you along the way as well, but keep your eye on the Lord.
Though my heart aches, I will stay strong. I will move on. A second chance has already been given and we now know this is too hard.  I don't think you realized that you can't just pick up things where you left them, gotta start new.  Out with the old and in with the new, as they sometimes say. The tears run down my cheek as I write, is this really goodbye? Like a thunderstorm my heart grumbles and is struck by lightening in half.
Did i trust you too much and yet so little? Was this too much for me to handle? I thought i would never leave you, but you knew from the start, it wouldn't last for long. I would one day walk away from what we had, though never meeting and thousands of miles away from each other, we had faith. But this isn't what was in the plan of God. There are better and greater things for us to do, though you will always hold a place in my heart. Though all I have loved will always be in my heart, you will also reside there. I'm sorry that I've hurt you, it's not what i intended to do, trust me. I had high expectations of you, when i shouldn't have.  Life's lessons can be painful, though we will learn to move on and deal with the consequences.

I am lonely and broken without the Lord, He satisfies me and gives me strength, He is my everything.
Listen to the angels and the heavenly music they sing from heaven, can you hear them? Are you listening?
If you can't hear them, you can't hear the mighty, yet beautiful voice of God. Listen, listen hard...Pray to the Lord.