another bad day.

How did it all come down to this? To that one conversation, that one fight? How is it possible to have the worst night ever when you're asleep and I'm dreaming of you? I couldn't sleep without fixing things, without apologizing. I wonder why, why you question the love I have for you.  I really, honestly, completely and entirely love you, with my whole heart. Though sometimes I don't show it and at times I'm timid, but I really do.

The place you're in right now is hard, but I want to be there for you, as a friend, if that's all I can be right now I will, I can wait. The emotions, the thoughts and words that are going through my mind are many, but I don't feel lost at all. I found myself in you... As hard as I tried not to impress you, somehow I did... With all of my strength I tried not to fall for you again, but I did. I had prayed, I asked God to help me, because I really didn't know what to think, what to do and what to say when we met. But everything fell into place and in my mind we were perfect for each other. Today is a new day, cloudy, cold and humid, much like a day you would enjoy. Though as much as I hate it, I somehow love it, because it makes me think of you and the days and nights we spent together only four short days ago. I don't want to lose you again, I don't think I can, but if I do, I will move on because I will have to. Together we could do this, I need you to help me through too and I know you could use me too. But all in all, there are not enough words to say to you to explain all of this... to convey that I REALLY DO LOVE YOU and that I would do anything for you.

Everything happens for a reason, both of our opinions matter, but the decisions we come to should bbe a collaborated  effort of sorts. I hope you understand.

Always yours,

KG.