my life this week

this week has been unexplainable, amazing and just all around WONDERFUL!
Monday started off with going to my friends house to sled with a 3 other guys, a girl and his sisters.
The hill on which we sled was insane, it was pretty much like death! I had to crawl up it.
After we were done, we went back to his house, made pizza, played video games, played Scrabble and just hung out. After the two other guys left it was just me and my friend and his sisters, two of which were off doing their own thing.  So i decided to play Just Dance on the Wii with his 11yr old sister, which was embarrassing and fun at the same time. He ended up leaving me to go work out at the gym with two of his sisters... leaving me with his 11year old sister pretty much all alone, except their mom was working out in the basement. He gave me a long, tight hug, and thanked me for coming.
I stayed awhile longer, playing with his sister so she wouldn't completely die of boredom and went home. this was one of the best days of my life. I was at his house for 5hours. (:

The previous day i had gone to visit a near by barn to check it out for lessons, i get there hoping not to be late to work and meet the owner and trainer. Firstly they ask if I'd be interested in working, i automatically said YES! and also riding... trading off... today was my first day working and riding for a very long time. I did, i think 10 stalls (so much work!) and rode for an hr. IT WAS SO TIRING.
I have to do the whole barn by myself tomorrow and I'm already dreading it.. and ooh so sore.

But life with sports, boys, work and love are going well for me... I don't know where to go from here, but i'm waiting patiently... school needs to be done, papers written and sleep needs to come. But for now it's me and my blog... my knitting needles and yarn.. my life and my loves.

always,
xoxo
k

I miss you

Dear Grandpa,
I miss you with all of my heart.
As much as I wish you were here,
I wish our family was together today,
celebrating the birth of our King!
My heart aches for the day that our
family will reunite again, because the
ones that are away right now... Need love.
I wish I could meet Philip... I wish that Kathy was here.
As much as I love them, I need them here.
Papa, I miss you. I need you here. I need a hug from you.
I long for the day when I will see you again.


Love,
Kateri

Happy Birthday Jesus!

So it's Jesus' birthday (:
You should be celebrating! If you're not, go out and celebrate!

I was on a mission trip the past few days (tues-friday)...
It was amazing! unexplainable, but still explainable enough to tell you how incredible it was.
Tuesday night everyone hung out and prepared for the first day of work -- wednesday.  We had Adoration and confession, which was all in itself amazing!
Wednesday morning, we rose at 7am and had Mass at 7:30, breakfast and prepared for the long day ahead.  My team: Gina, Audra, Ellie, Eddie, Evan and myself went to the girl, Cassie's house.  We painted her room purple with black trim, we put zebra print comforter, rugs and curtains in her room and gave her a desk and shelf. We showed her love through our generosity. We got back to the church where we were staying and had dinner, prayed and slept.
Thursday morning we woke up at 7 and had Mass at 7:30, we then ate breakfast and were assigned to new teams and different projects... I was with Elyse, Gabe, Matt, JP, Michele Michaela, Augustine, Daniel... We went to the largest Catholic museum in the US. We cleaned - vacuumed, dusted the whole museum and some of us swept and mopped the soup kitchen. Myself and Michele were faster than the boys at sweeping and mopping. (: we finished at about 1:30 and walked back to the church center and proceeded to the Run the Race center where we decorated for the dinner party later that night for all of the Racer's and their families.  We put on skits for them and sang songs, we had santa there for the little kids...
Once everyone got back to the parish center, we were exhausted, we hung out had night prayer and got to bed.  Friday morning we awoke at 7:30, had breakfast, packed, morning prayer, then everyone who hadnt seen the museum went there and all of us who had, stayed at the parish center and cleaned up! at 10am everyone went home.

This was an overall amazing trip! So much happened, I am still trying to precess it all.
God is Good!



A side story within this trip... I was helping decorate one of the rooms in the Run the Race center and then i saw this kid walk in; a 17 year old boy, tall, tan skin and dark hair... I realized that it was a boy that i had once gone to kindergarten with -- Mark... I had seen him on the Cranks Creek trip (our usual youth group mission trip) two years ago and had thought of him the day before... It was funny that he was there because he was the first boy i liked, the boy i liked all throughout  middle school and could possibly still like him... Now, see here, throughout middle school and kindergarten, this wasn't just a crush i had on this handsome young boy, but it was the boy that i loved. So i remembered that we once liked each other and had once kissed each other, but i didnt know if he still remembered... so it was just kind of awkward. But now my mind is spinning, the possibilities and everything... Life is happening and i only wish i knew what would happen next.

i love him... because no matter where i go, i cannot walk alone.

why do i want to cry... 

where am i, who am i ... 

where do i go from here?

i was so sure of myself, 

so sure of who i was, 

who i needed, who i wanted to be.

but then... there you go,

being yourself. saying the things 

i want to hear... but you're just not 

right for me... the one that is,

makes me smile, no matter what he says.

but i'm not sure he knows, 

i dont know if he cares. 

i'm trying to stay strong... 

trying to keep moving. keeping my head up.

i hope he'll look to me, and take my hand

because i cannot walk alone.

wherever i go,

i hope he'll be there too.

if i have to stay to be with him, i will.

but hey, true love makes no compromises.

And i must say, i could be married to him, everyday ...

365 x 50... everyday for 50 years, 

yes i've said it. i could ... 

i believe in my heart that i truly could...

but what if i get my hopes up,

what if this all comes crashing down. 

what then?

all i know is that i love him,

i cant give my heart away this soon,

not now, because i dont want it 

broken into a million pieces...

but everything i've said is true.

all of it.

i love him (:

The other guy

Best friends,

lovers,

all that we could be.

Made a history,

had some perfect moments,

that once meant so much to me.

Now I've moved on,

because I tried so hard,

I was unsure how I really felt, 

and if I even loved you.

The night I saw him... 

The one that swept me off my feet,

I saw a glance of jealousy in your eyes...

At least thats what I saw.

Now you're so quiet,

so standoffish... 

I want to be friends,

and just set aside the childish games.

The high school drama.

Because it took you too long,

I'm afraid I've said this before.

It took you too long to make a move.

But perhaps you aren't the one for me...

Its just not me+ you...

WHAT IF: YOU + ME

I've fallen hard for you,
one glance in your eyes,
one look at your smile.
That's all it took for me to fall for you.
You've changed so much since I saw you last,
it was all for the best.
You're everything I've dreamed of,
everything I prayed for.
Everything I need, cause you're everything to me.
That night when we danced,
you took me by the hands,
I hadn't a clue, I'd become so into you, but I did.
I kept telling you that you were doing fine,
just keep trying. Then driving home I thought,
what if you're the one... the one i've waited all this time for.
What if all this pain and suffering was all for you. For you
to change, to become a better person.
All I know is that I love you, with all of my heart;
all I can pray for is that this will all work out; You and Me.

LOOK AWAY -- TFK