Yeah, and what if i still love you? what then?

If i still love you, what would you do?
What would you do if you actually knew?
My thoughts are racing, my heart is too,
and i have the thought that I still love you.
Oh what am I to do?
This feeling inside of me,
memories passing through my mind...
It is indeed a crazy feeling I'm going through, I just cant explain it.
What if i saw you today, what if i saw you tomorrow?
What if you smiled and said "hey, how are you?" what ever
would I do? I'd be speechless. Tongue tied. That's what I'd be.

I never can explain my thoughts, my feelings and never know what to do.
These are part of humanity; this life i'm living, often confused, i need someone to help pull me through.

I HAD A DREAM

I had a dream the other day, that I had a boyfriend,
I wonder who it could be... I didn't recognize him
but he was rather tall and blonde :) The one thing about
this dream is that we'd been dating for some time and
still hadn't kissed...

A more recent dream, as of last night, I found myself
dreaming of this wonderful man again, tall and blonde.
He asked me to homecoming, somewhere, someplace.
He was everything I could dream of. And I found myself
thanking God for him, because I had given up and let all things
go and he brought this wonderful man into my life...
Oh how I wish this dream would come true, because God,
I give all things to you. :)

xoxo

let it be

well hey, everything i wanted to happen, happened. well kind of. the guy i like found out that i like him...
and i get to see him for numerous hours tomorrow. OH JOY! soo that should be interesting. i just want to know what he thinks about the whole thing. i mean i'm sure he knew before today, because hey he held my hand that one night in summer. soo if he's soo not into the whole me liking him thing then why did he hold my hand anyways? my point exactly. case closed. i'm just gunna let it be. :)
peace.

what if

The big question of what if; always wondering what would have happened especially if you had done something ...

I find myself pondering the mysteries of life. What if i had done this, or done that and because i didn't take a risk, i do not know what would have happened. This happens especially with boys, I mean really, you like a guy and he likes you. JUST TELL EACH OTHER ALREADY. Take a risk! What are you waiting for? But everyone is afraid of rejection and a broken heart, it's quite understandable. But if you just wait, you might miss out on something big. 

If i could be truthfully honest and completely vulnerable to the guy i like, i would, but i'm afraid. Afraid of getting my heart broken, and I guess I should be. I'm the kind of person that chokes up and doesn't know what to say when he walks by. I mean this really just sounds pathetic. Just another day in my world. That is all.

someone is out there for you.

so theres this perfect someone waiting for you, but you just gotta wait too. maybe you know him, maybe you dont. but he'll come along sooner or later, or just get the courage to ask ya out.

somewhere, someplace, the stars will shine

And every night the stars will somewhere shine and you will close your eyes to fall asleep. 

There you will come into a dream that you wish was your reality. 

A place where all is perfect, but then this perfect world seems to slip through your fingers 

and you awaken to find that it was only a dream, a dream that was not real.

summer love.

How can you cross my mind

what we had is over and done with

time has gone by, we've moved on.

Life has changed but the guys that 

come in and out of my life, seem to scar my heart.

I'm careful of who i love, but if i fall too hard, i push away.

Just slamming that door shut and running away.

But there is this one guy, he's sweet and kind, 

I want to be more than a friend, 

I want to hold his hand. I want to look in his eyes.

It's hard to say goodbye, but so easy to say hello.

I don't just want a summer fling, i want something

serious and real. Something we can hold on to this year.