memories.

Its over and done with, now why can't i move on? The memories lingering in my mind, seeing the days we spent together crystal clear. Why is it all coming back to me? This flood of memories, like a photograph, time passed as they were taken. the way you smiled, the way you laughed... i remember it all... now why can't i forget?

love you

i always feel like we never talk even though we do every day. words left unspoken cause we're too afraid. i stare at your photograph and just smile and think of how much i truly love you and how lucky i am to have you. missed opportunities, dont beat yourself up, there's always tomorrow that you can stand up and say i love you forever and always. ♥

music.

Some hate country music, but i like a very wide variety of music. Country music, it reminds me of the good old days when i used to clean horse stalls and go riding. Though I don't like some country music, I love the rest. I might say i hate it. But i dont. Music reminds me of different times throughout my life and thats why i love it.
All I'm saying is appriciate music for what it is. Though some may be grungy and loud and obnoxious, but underneath there is some good. Melody and Harmony. Yes that's all.

i still care.

The days go by and I still think of you.

This year's been rough but I've got new friends

who are helpin me get through it.

I've got someone new to love,

someone new to miss.

Someone who will say I'm beautiful

and "I love you"... 

I've fallen in love again, 

someone has fallen in love with me.

The past still haunts me, 

but i think of what wouldn't have been

rather than what would have been.

I wish we were still best friends, 

but you rarely talk to me.

Anyways i just thought i'd say,

that i still care and i want you to be happy once again.

with love from your friend

Butterflies in My Stomach

Everytime I talk to you
I get butterflies in my stomach
And today I'm gettin sick of them
flying around within me.
I can't hide it anymore,
I like you.
I've said it before.
I can't think of you as just a friend
it aint workin boy.
We cant just be friends, cause I want
to be much more.
I want to see you,
I want to touch you,
I want to wrap my arms around you.
But for now I just wan't these
butterflies to stop.
They're makin me sick.
Everytime you call I don't know what to
say, I just listen to your voice as if
it were the first time I heard it.
You're really the only friend I've got right now.
Who's always there to listen to me,
and tell me what to do.
I really love you.

I Like You...

I like you, I'm not talking about anyone specific or maybe I am. You will never know.

The lyrics below really resemble my life at the moment.

Girl you don't got nothing to prove to me, I know that times have been rough, For the both of us.

I know I have nothing to prove to those I love with all of my heart but i always feel like I do.

Times have been rough for all of us, but these times have made us stronger for what is to come.

Praying for a change... That's what I want, change. 

Sometimes I wish my life was different. That I lived in California again and life was just picture perfect. But, everything happens for a reason right? sometimes yes and sometimes no. I mean you can let your best friend walk right out of your life and not stop them. One day you look back and wish that you would've stopped them from leaving, but you didn't. If I didn't live in Ohio I wouldn't have met all of these wonderful people I know today. I wouldn't have done the things I've done, gone the places I've gone and everything else. I wouldn't know the best friends i have today or be going to the college only a few hours away. 

Moving on now... All of these lyrics, all of the notes played in this song, plays in my head, just for a boy. :)

"There's not much else I can do, But fall for you, You know that I'm a wreck, And you know I can't breathe, At the edge of my seat with each word, As the months turn into years, Just know that I will wait... here, For you..."

Now wait a second. Am I really falling for this kid? for this man who is so lovely and beautiful inside and out?

I believe so. My heart aches everytime I talk to you. Everytime you say hello and I wonder what things will be like in the future. I just hope you're with me, even if we are just friends. I'll take anything I can get. Cause I will wait here for you.

HUMMINGBIRD

BY: NEVERSHOUTNEVER

I like you
Girl you don't got nothing to prove to me
I know that times have been rough
For the both of us

But I'll pray for a change

You see this world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark,
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you

You know that I'm a wreck
And you know I can't breathe
At the edge of my seat with each word
As the months turn into years
Just know that I will wait... here,
For you

Cause I prayed for a change

You see this world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark,
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you
For you
For you
For you

This world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark,
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you

If You Can't Live Without Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet?

BY: MAYDAY PARADE


Baby, I sorely miss the vibrant gleam
That's in your eyes
I'll write a song about it
And maybe if the melody's just right
I hope tonight it will find you
It will remind you

But what's holding me back
Is the thought of time we never had
My world's hanging by three words
That I can't bear to say

When you hear this chorus
Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?
Do you hurt the way that I do?
After all this time, you leave me broken
This song is every word I left unspoken
When you hear this, girl, I'm hoping
That you'll think of us
That you'll think of us

Baby, I told myself that I'll be fine
But it's a lie
I don't wanna talk about it
Memories, oh, they cut like knives
Deep inside, I'm falling
Baby, catch me if you can

What's holding me back
Is the thought of time we never had
My world's hanging by three words
That I can't bear to say

When you hear this chorus
Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?
Do you hurt the way that I do?
After all this time, you leave me broken
This song is every word I left unspoken
When you hear this, girl, I'm hoping
That you'll think of us

When you hear this chorus
Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?
Do you hurt the way that I do?
After all this time, you leave me broken
This song is every word I left unspoken
When you hear this, girl, I'm hoping
That you'll think of us
That you'll think of us

Baby, I sorely miss the vibrant gleam
That's in your eyes