the thing about time is this,
time + life = change...
sometimes change is good, sometimes it is bad;
in this case its both.
the things that have recently happened are the following:
revelations about life and what i am supposed to do (college & boys)...
getting discouraged about the previously mentioned topics...
not knowing what to do with my life.
mental breakdowns
senioritis
allergies
.......................
now, i assure you, it's not as bad as it sounds... well not really,
a month ago i knew what i wanted, every little detail, or at least i knew it was right, that it was what was going to happened... but i waited and nothing has happened yet, but time will tell.
the things i had revealed to me were that i could wake up every morning to a certain someone (mentioned in a previous post) ... that i could be happy with him for the rest of my life... i didn't care if i had a zit on my face or that my hair was frizzy or make up smeared but if i could just stare into his eyes, i would give anything and everything... i was able to see him perfectly through all of his imperfections and accept him, which i had never been able to see someone in this way before. i don't have him, but i don't want to lose him, but how can i lose something i dont have? how can i come to love so easily? everything is changing and all i pray is that this guy, this wonderful man would be in my future...
