What's it mean?

What's it mean when I start to miss you again? When I almost cry at the thought of not being with you.
Did I ever love you? Am I still in love with you? Whatever this is, I want whats best for you and if it's not being with you, I'll be okay. I've been okay since May. But that's what I've just been saying, it's not necessarily true.

Yeah, and what if i still love you? what then?

If i still love you, what would you do?
What would you do if you actually knew?
My thoughts are racing, my heart is too,
and i have the thought that I still love you.
Oh what am I to do?
This feeling inside of me,
memories passing through my mind...
It is indeed a crazy feeling I'm going through, I just cant explain it.
What if i saw you today, what if i saw you tomorrow?
What if you smiled and said "hey, how are you?" what ever
would I do? I'd be speechless. Tongue tied. That's what I'd be.

I never can explain my thoughts, my feelings and never know what to do.
These are part of humanity; this life i'm living, often confused, i need someone to help pull me through.